I've been doing a lot of reflection lately on my many moods.
For so long I denied being anxious.
For so long I denied being sensitive.
For so long I denied my longing desire to belong.
I didn't want to be seen as weak.
And to those familiar with shadow work, it's no surprise that I judged those who embodied any of those qualities... those that I rejected within myself.
I've had a low couple of weeks.
And within those weeks, I own what I could've done better: less social media, more gratitude, less pressure, more slowing down, less resistance, more surrender, more support and certainly listening to my joy.
What I do know though, is that I stumbled upon this post by Morgan Harper Nichols this week:
As many know, my deepest inspiration comes from my time at my family's jungle home on Maui we called, Mu.
I call upon the energy of Mu the same way one might call upon Christ or Allah.
Interestingly, as I write this now, a crow sits on my bedroom balcony. The wind picked up a bit and blew the doors open wider. The air became cooler. I normally don't like crows. I'm not a fan of their cries and I see them as troubled.
But in this moment, the stormier air and focused caws feels like a call from Mu. A gentle whisper that says, "Hey. I'm here."
In a strangely sleepless night a few days ago, I found this voice memo I recorded at Mu.
Here's what it said:
"Mu is Lokahi.
It's the embodiment of all opposing forces
To achieve perfect harmony, bliss, full integration, acceptance, peace, and balance.
On a physical level, it's the opposing elements: air, water, earth, and fire.
On an emotional level, you get the storms, you get the moody darker weather, you get beautiful rays of golden light.
You get monarchs and whales.
And centipedes and spiders.
You get life and you get death.
Mentally, there are days where everything feels light and perfect.
Like the perfect ground for wellbeing and positivity and peace.
And other days, it's dark.
And you battle your demons in solitude, isolation and fear.
And spiritually, you get the dark and you get the light.
You get magic and you get torment.
You get your mirror.
You get what you need.
Finding the perfect blend and ride between surrender and strength.
Showing up with the stamina to withstand whatever is thrown at you
And to manifest greater lightness,
While still being able to lean into any darkness.
Knowing that all the darkness, no matter how dark it seems... really is light.
The full spectrum of the rainbow.
Everything here is God.
Whatever seeds you sow will flourish.
There cannot be light without dark.
There may not even be peace without war."
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What does wholeness mean to you?